Gone At Last

The eye watches
beholds controls
rips at what
we barley know
Love betrays
contorts, and mocks
a road of blindness
we willingly walk
Hearts shatter
break and cry
Maybe sometimes
its better to die
The unknown
hides, shaded
left in darkness
where I cry
You take me
Shake me, throw me out
No drought left
I sigh and count
Moments left have I to live
your last chance
before we conceive
what cannot be
Irreversible is the end
drowning, sinking
falling fast
farewell my love
I'm gone at last

Everything

I sit here alone
on the edge of existence
cradling my life
in the palm of my hand.
The rest of eternity
hinging itself
to this one moment.
Capturing one last breath
as you steady the blade
that glides over my heart
as well as my wrist,
you end everything
I have come to live for,
by ending everything
that we were.

At War with Me

So quickly I grew used to having you around
so much I trusted and loved you but now its over
can't change what I've done
lost you for good this time
for better or for worse
before death did we part
we split and I played it off like I didn't care
lying to myself again and again
hoping to make my lies reality
I hide my feelings of pain
under my sleeve and in my heart
slowly the pain of losing you
Is carving a deeper hole into my flesh
you run down my arm
and pool on the floor in a puddle before my feet
my mind keeps spinning and I see your face everywhere
as it haunts my heavy heart
more quickly now
you are carving your essence of addiction into me
tormenting my soul
thoughts of you dangle throughout my troubled mind
set me free from misery
let my heart soar
my bleeding stop
and my hope restore
let me continue to live a lie
because its all I know any more
because its all I let myself see.

Ship Wrecked

With every tear running down my face
you can't imagine the pain I want to erase
with every ticking of my dieing clock
you can't keep up.
so here I stand
here I stand
waiting for you
and wanting you,
and knowing you won't come,
you won't come,no.
Dieing now ever so slowly
As the tears pour from my bloodshot eyes
I use my blade and erase the pain
you willingly handed me
you turn your back on me again
turn my gut within me again
and i leave no trace of ever wanting you
no trace of the love I ever had for you
cause there I stood
there I stood
waiting for you
and wanting you
but you never came
you never came
no
My blood runs cold now
my heart beats slow now
my breathing stops,
screeching to a halt.
With a jolt I awake
your not worth my pain
'n' your not worth my time
if you can't see what you're missing
then baby you don't deserve this heartache of mine
and I was there
I was there
waiting for you
wanting you
to finally see me
but you wouldn't come
you wouldn't come
and now I give my love
to someone who will return
the love without the hate.