You

Everything was fine
till you pushed it to far
you knew you couldn't do it
you knew your strength wouldn't hold
you knew later you'd suffer
but you didn't think we would too
Have you ever stopped to think
about the ones who care for you
about the ones who love you so
about the one little girl who you'd hurt
and how she'd writhe inside
each time you did something that could cost you your life
Did you ever start to wonder
What if you weren't here?
What if you'd never existed?
What if you were never born?
Well there'd be a kid you could count on
that would feel an explosion of grief because something would always be missing
Theres more than one kind of hole in hearts
there's flesh and theres emptiness
there's physical and mental
they're both real and potentially dangerous
and the kind you have puts one in mine
though they're different, one hurts worse and cuts you down to the core.
I bet you never pondered
that someone would care this much
that someone would share your pain
that someone would die inside
every time you just weren't there
and the irresolution of whether or not you ever could be again would take hold

My Love

If only you knew
what you do and the pain,
the pain you put me through
if only I could show you
how you've hurt
my inner child.
I really want to believe
you're the hero I'd always thought you'd be
but the thought always leaves me distraught.
One more drink might be your last.
One more drink just do it fast.
You mean the world to me
if only you knew
I was alone and scared
and punished for being only me

and loveing you

A concealing

You Love the me I pretend to be
But do you know who hides
deep in my shadows
a secret lies
that will change all you have thought of me
all that I am left to portray
is a character bound by dismay
You love the her she pretends to be
and know not of the secret she hides
though it may change all you have thought of her
you pressure all the more
to see what she keeps behind the doors
if she steps out
do you promise to still love me like before?
she has a secret fantasy
Someday she will come out and tell the world
but they won't understand
so here she resides behind locked doors
hiding who she's been
because of who she is

I Love You

I love you!
What does it truely mean?
to me it is always just a cliche
an overly used bunch of words
"I love you!"
I say it often
but does it mean anything?
words are nothing
they are used blindly
and thrown everywhere
People take them to heart
I try to block them out
I try to be oblivious to all else
but although its what I want
no on will leave me alone
SO...
I love you isn't what I should say to you
because you are more special to me
than any bunch of words could ever be